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I'm an emotional wreck.


Willieh

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When I was younger, my best friend went out with the love of my life. I was 11. And that experience ruined me emotionally. Even though I didn't give any hints to either of them about my real feelings, and that those feelings only really surfaced after they started going out, I still felt profoundly betrayed.

 

Because of my "best friend" funking me over I don't feel comfortable opening myself up and extending my emotions.

 

In the past couple of years I have attempted relationships. I really have. But it hurts so bad when I see the same thing happen all over again...my newer best friend gets buddy buddy with the girl I love and I am blocked out of her life. She gets other boyfriends and I try to show her how much I love her. I really funking tried. That guy was no good...I was trying to help when I brought that knife. He deserved a good stabbing. Not that he got one...I just wanted to look manly in front of her.

 

I pretty much gave up on her - let's call her 'J' - a few months ago, and have since moved onto her friend. I think she's different...she actually sees past my semi-autistic features to my personality. I even went to the school ball with her. She kinda ignored me the whole night and flinched every time I tried to dance with her or speak to her, but it still shows progress right? Let's call *her* 'K'.

 

Some inferior woman-thing tried seducing me. She tried to distract me from my real love. We dated for a couple weeks, kinda, but only because I was so messed up at the time and didn't know what I really wanted. I broke up with her though because I can't really handle anything right now. My life is pretty intense at the moment. Maybe things will get better when I move to the city.

 

Sorry guys... I just... needed to vent.

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Guest JoshIcy

It's funny how' date=' people whine about other people and the things they do, then end up doing the exact same things. :?

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Lol, practice what you preach.

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Thats why my friends we have the internet...the best place to be upset and nobody knowing it's you...just forget about it...of course i would have punched my mate but...

 

Just don't think of it, your friend obviously wasn't a friend (or just desperate), and if the girl hadn't the same feelings for you, she wasn't the right one, if she doesn't like you in that way, you can't just keep waiting, because you'll be waiting a long time, just look for somebody who does appriciate you no matter what...^_^

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