I feel like crying.

[Toffee.]

BGM: Genesis of Next

This song has absolute nothing to do with this; I just like it.

 

I'm Kevin, but I suppose you already knew that. Go ahead and disqualify me. Banning my account for the duration would just be childish/You'll do it anyway just to prove some petty point/You don't trust me enough to know I'm keeping my word on it- I honestly dont plan to return for the remainder of October. In fact, I don't really know when I do plan to return.

 

Realistically, I've felt very terrible these last few weeks. No, not because my shift to the disgrace that is Toffee, or because Kevin gave me a window to be an jabroni in a non-serious way- No. It's not you guys, it's not anything else like that. It's me. Like, I need time to myself. I feel very torn, there are far to many broken hearts, and my actions cant ever redeem anything I've done. And for whatever reason, life keeps reminding me that my anger is always going to get the better of me in ways I honestly don't like, and that I'm typically always going to be someone who honestly isn't even worth your time- Sorry, but I'm postponing that Beach City ending parody; feel free to hate me for that. Furthermore, feel free to hate me for suddenly leaving like this. I just need time to myself; time to rethink a lot of things; time to try and put things behind me that I honestly always keep dwelling on, because I'm such a terrible person. If you still know a means of contacting me, sure, whatever- Please, forgo the customary "DURRR IM HERE IF U NEED ME"- I'm not being rude, since I get that you somehow care for a selfishly bitter funk like myself, I just won't really see a lot of worth to it unless you are up-front about why you are still wanting to stay in contact with me. I'm sure the rest of you will continue to talk badly about me behind my back- honestly I'd do the same, since we all know it's common knowledge that we talk sheet about eachother the moment one of us leaves- You think I'm full of it for saying this, sure, but you know its true.

 

Honestly it would really do me a lot of good if I were to start naming names, in terms of who I feel like has really hurt me and those of which who I know I've hurt on equal or greater levels. But as you know, I've never really been one to hold things against you guys in these sort of terms; it's just more mental notes to add to my wall that resides in my mind; Honestly I don't even know why your still reading this, knowing all this sheet I'm saying.

 

Really wish I wasn't such a funking idiot, nor did I have all these apparent issues with myself/that I'm for whatever reason being more public about.

 

And I'm sure all of you keyboard warriors or those with a SJW mindset will go about trying to justify why I'm terrible; it's understandable; I'm not really going to hide anyhting nor try and deny anything. I'm also leaving that Discord chat; I don't ever really expect to be invited back- not like you'd want me back anyway.

 

So feel free to assume I'm being an attention whore, and feel free to take any misguided views about me seriously that you are likely being spoonfed by those that honestly dont like me.

I'm not venting or anything. That would just be pointless. I'm just saying a bunch of snarky sheet so you wont really take any of this seriously/you'll have yet more reasons to look down on me/etc.

 

Again, none of this is your fault. it never was. It's all me. I just.... *sigh* I just don't even know anymore.

 

And really...

 

(Not really motivated to find a smaller gif)

 

It would probably be best, if you didn't have a predator for a friend...

 

Locking this in advance, btw. Would rather not garner replies to it.