Careless Whisper Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 I was dabating for 3 days straight about whterh or not I should post this...but I have decided that it would be for the better to explain the exact reason why I had an extreme depression on Tuesday, September 2nd, 2008. You see, I had this friend of mine, her name was Rachel. She was a friend dear to me for she was like the sister I never had. She looked out for me, always been there in my worst moments, and helped me through the ages sense I met her. But on Monday Night, I feared for her, I feared that she will not be the same after I hung out with her that night. So I did the one thing that I have never done in my entire life. I prayed for her, I prayed for the first time in my entire life. But it did not work, for my fear had come to truth. She was involved in a car accident that inflicted her horribly. As soon as I heard, I rushed to the hospital, but only to find out, that her last words were spoken. She passed away that night, and I was too late to give her a personal "final farewell." And I blamed myself for it. I blamed myself because I thought that if I had not prayed, she would have been safe. I thought about that for a while, and realized that the prayer had nothing to do with her tragedy. It was not fate, but a car accident alone that took her from this world, and I did merely denied myself the mind to stay agnostic for that night. But that did not ease my suffering, so I had attempted to kill myself 3 times, but I could not pull myself to do so at all. I was too afraid of it, for I am truly afraid to die miserably. But, that did not stop me from shedding my own blood, so I made 3 cuts upon my left arm, each for every true friend that I have left. But it did not stop there, I still was miserable, so I seeked guidence, I seeked helpm which I receaved very kindly by my three true friends along with Yankeefan. Her funeral was on Wednsday at noon. And I was selected by her parents to give the final farewell. But I could not stay in the room for the prayer, for I could not pull myself together well enough to bare the words of a christian faith in which I cannot choose, so I stepped outside of the church, and cried to myself. And I will be online later than usual, for I made a vow to visit Rachel's grave at the cemetary every day after school. So there you have, the explanation of my depression moment this week. If a moderator sees fit to lock this, then they may. But know this, if the society of YCM wish to comment on this, then they can. ~Meti Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Yankee Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 I'm glad you finally posted this man. As I have already said, I am very sorry for you loss. But I hope you remember what I said. Don't let her die in vein, allright? I'll be here anytime you need me ^_^Heck, YCM is here for you as well ;) - Yankeefan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lazer Yoshi Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 That's sad :(I'll pray for her family. I hope we can make you feel better.But when you go, you'll see her. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
+Jono Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 Praying has nothing to do with her dying. I prayed every night, but that didn't stop my mum dying. I still pray. If you pray and ask for forgiveness from God you'll feel much better. I feel sorry for you and Rachel's family. But something that may comfort you is that Rachel is in a better place. Heaven > Earth. Try to feel better. I mean there's no use crying over spilled milk. I know how you feel. I lost my best friend, who was my cousin, when we were both three. Well, feel better. Sorry to hear about your loss. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
「tea.leaf」 Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 Wow, this is like old clairex + tl;dr, except significantly more assertive. Maybe this is definitive evidence that suggests––Hold up, I'll shut it before the crazies kill me. Girl in my school died in June of a car crash on a Saturday night. My friends and I had a lol about it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest JoshIcy Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 Holy [censored]!! >_>" As I read that I almost felt the absolute intensity. This is... :'( But do not blame yourself. Appreciate the time you had together, be lucky that you were one of the few to absolutely realize this. Embrace it and use it as motivation to move forward. Convert this utter sadness into Joy and throw it at everything you do, instead of letting it bottle up and control you. And may the best come to you and the family. My sincerest condolences. ~Josh, your friendly Islander. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pikachu Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 that is so sad....i feel sorry for you...well, hope she is happy in her new..place Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bakura Vessal Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 dont be sad, killing your self would end your life, so you wouldnt want to do that just listen to some lullaby music, get a full tissue box, and fall asleep. then listen to more lullaby music when you wake up and just relax and know she has gone to a better place Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
「tea.leaf」 Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 killing your self would end your life Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MarbleZone Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 Girl in my school died in June of a car crash on a Saturday night. My friends and I had a lol about it. I suggest a trip to Iraq for countless hours of laughter. :/ Anyway' date=' Sario, you know you have our condolences, and I understand your need to share this kind of problems, but I'm not sure you should post pretty much your life in a public forum like this. Not only are we incapable of helping you in any way at all, you're also placing your complete trust in a group of strangers. Besides, this is the kind of problem you ought to share with real friends and family if you have the chance, [i']that [/i]will make you feel better - comfort from real people. Talking about it is much, much better than posting it. ;) Be that as it may, I'm really sorry for your loss, and I hope you're able to pull yourself together quickly. EDIT: Hm, I subconsciously ignored the "suicide" part. Don't be weak to the point where you ask yourself whether being dead is better than being alive or not, it's not even an intellectual challenge. :P Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JesusofChaos™ Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 I dont know how you can seriously contemplate killing yourself. Really this just makes the situation worse than it already is. A better reaction would be to think to yourself "Im going to do all the things we enjoyed doing together." Killing yourself isnt going to solve anything, i dont know why people even contemplate it will. Live every minute to its fulliest Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bakura Vessal Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 killing your self would end your life oh at least i am trying to help unlike you who gets lols out of dead people in car crashes Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Tiger Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 That's so sad :cry: Remember, if you need help, just pm me ;) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
「tea.leaf」 Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 killing your self would end your life oh at least i am trying to help unlike you who gets lols out of dead people in car crashes She had it coming to her. She was probably in a car full of drunks when she got hit on the freeway. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Larxene Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 lolx look at Meti get all the attention, while I get group flamed :P Love the hypocrisy here everyone ;) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
.Digital.Simplicity. Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 Let it all out do you feel better now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
J-Max Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 All attention seeking threads are annoying. Seek councilling Meti there is nothing we can do. Claire just chill, K? ;) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
End Of The Abyss Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 Meti....This is a hard time for you, I know. But that's why we're here. We're here for you, man! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Static Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 Quit QQing. Sh-t happens, it's inevitable, you're not helping yourself by giving a damn. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bakura Vessal Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 killing your self would end your life oh at least i am trying to help unlike you who gets lols out of dead people in car crashes She had it coming to her. She was probably in a car full of drunks when she got hit on the freeway. Omg' date=' could there be a less cold hearted person on the forum? This guys friend died, a really good friend to him, and thats the post you can think of? [/quote'] exacually what i ment Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
「tea.leaf」 Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 Actually, I think this forum is quite biased in how Meti can be an attention whore and not be flamed, where as clairex can't be. Really fair, you guys. Of course, my personal opinion is that both of you should shut up. Since I have no jurisdiction over this forum, I can't do anything. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Static Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 Actually' date=' I think this forum is quite biased in how Meti can be an attention whore and not be flamed, where as clairex can't be. Really fair, you guys. Of course, my personal opinion is that both of you should shut up. Since I have no jurisdiction over this forum, I can't do anything.[/quote'] ^^ This. Both need to stop whining immediately. And I think Yankee's post is broken, its going to continue moving forward for another 32 minutes (It was apparently posted at 5:40?) when the error releases him, and allows him to post again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tkill93 Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 QQ moar. Keep your attention seeking threads and teenage angst off the forum please. Sorry but you never stop with these. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Yankee Posted September 5, 2008 Report Share Posted September 5, 2008 killing your self would end your life oh at least i am trying to help unlike you who gets lols out of dead people in car crashes She had it coming to her. She was probably in a car full of drunks when she got hit on the freeway. Omg' date=' could there be a less cold hearted person on the forum? This guys friend died, a really good friend to him, and thats the post you can think of? lolx look at Meti get all the attention, while I get group flamed :P Love the hypocrisy here everyone ;)This thread is not about you, gtfo unless your gonna try to help him. I'm not saying you don't have some issues that need help, but don't get all "It's all about me" here >.> Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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