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I have a pretty severe lack of self-esteem, mostly stemming from the fact that my mind keeps reminding me over and over about things that I really wish I hadn't done (which can also be pretty petty). I practically beat myself up over this (figuratively speaking), which definitely doesn't help. Worse yet is the fact that I keep (not deliberately) thinking up things I could do which are stupid or bad, and beat myself up over that too. I also hate being a burden to anyone, and cannot for the life of me bring myself to a fast decision.
On the flip side, my social skills have greatly improved.
I also tend to apologize. A lot. Sorry for this long vent, feels like I've never really written all of this down before.

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I'm far from perfect. I know that I'm eccentric, emotional, silly. But I'm proud of myself, and how I act.

Golly, it's great to be m-

[quote name='Legend Zero' timestamp='1324830466' post='5728501']
Speaking about 'you', I do dislike when a person is basically full on in love with themselves.
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It's [i]sorta[/i] great to be me. ;D

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As for me, I do love myself. I am who I am, and not a damn thing can change that. Sure, my personality might change every once in a while. It all depends on who I hang out with and if I'm on medication for my ADD and OCD; but, what the hell, I've stopped taking medication and I think I do better without it. I feel great about everything I do, and I wouldn't ever change me ( consciously ).

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I feel pretty good about myself honestly.
Only thing bad I can say is that I'm a little on the lanky side, and I'm not very muscular, but honestly, that doesn't bother me.
Other than that, I make myself feel like an idiot some times, though only when it comes to like, arguments and what not. I still get pretty good grades overall.

So yeah, I feel pretty good about myself.

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I'm happy about my looks, my muscles and my athletic prowess. I am also happy about my artistic side, I like to play guitar and sing. On the flip side, I'm not too happy with my general stubbornness and my tendency to get into arguments with pretty much everyone.

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This kind of explains how I feel about myself right now:
[spoiler=I think one of the best feelings is figuring out what you want to be.][color=#000000]For quite a while, I guess I felt lost. I wouldn't know it at the time and I wouldn't admit to myself that where I was wasn't right, but I know I felt off. I felt like I didn't even know myself anymore and I constantly wanted to try new things for the slight chance of finding myself again. I was sick of being so disconnected with my thoughts and feelings.[/color]

[color=#000000]I blamed this on not having a focus in my mind anymore, on my parents who don't let me do certain things, and on experiences I've always wanted to have.[/color]

[color=#000000]But really, I should've been blaming myself. I was holding myself back from certain changes that could've been made earlier so that I could look in the mirror and [i]know[/i] the person that I'm seeing.[/color]

[color=#000000]I figured it out again. The puzzle isn't much of a blur anymore.[/color]

[color=#000000]But to me, it's not just knowing who you are that matters. It's about [i]liking[/i] who you are.[/color]

[color=#000000]I didn't feel connected with myself before because I didn't like the person I'd see in the mirror each day. I didn't like the way I looked, the way I talked, the way I'd be so bitter about so many things. And the oh so obvious, I just didn't feel good enough.[/color]

[color=#000000]But the funny thing is, I didn't feel good enough for [i]my own standards[/i].[/color]

[color=#000000]I'm done with that though. I'm done feeling exhausted and hallow and unable to bear that reflection. [/color]

[color=#000000]I quite like change and I like who I am when I know what I want to change to.[/color]

[color=#000000]I like who I am when I have an independent mind that's filled with creative thoughts and ideas. I like who I am when I'm working out, eating healthy, and able to see the changes I'm able to make to my body. I like who I am when I'm more interested about other people than I want them to be about me. I like who I am when I become wittier and more of an intellectual, so I know what to say and can continue to value the arts. I like who I am when I'm at a store and I know exactly what clothes to try on because they scream the expression I'm trying to make. I like who I am when I can finally step down for once, admit that I've been wrong about so many things, and push myself to work hard to make it all right. I like who I am when I can stand up for myself, speak my mind, and not be such a mystery to people anymore. [/color]

[color=#000000]I like who I am when I'm able to make things brighter for myself, the family I have, and the friends I keep.[/color]

[color=#000000]I'm making all these changes right now, step by step. I'm going to be happy with myself, creating that ideal person I've always wanted to be.[/color][/spoiler]

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My self-esteem is lacking, I can think quite lowly of myself sometimes, it depends on the day I had. But overall, I can appreciate I have good friends and family and I like how I'm easy-going and try not to cause a problem unless it's necessary. It's hard for me to take a compliment, but I always appreciate the sentiment.
Other than that, I wish I wasn't a procrastinator.

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[quote name='Legend Zero' timestamp='1324830466' post='5728501']
You, sir, have made the most important post in the thread. =D

Speaking about 'you', I do dislike when a person is basically full on in love with themselves.
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So.......Vegeta?

ohwaitthat'sprideit'stotallysomethingelsewat[quote name='Fusion X. Denver' timestamp='1324859844' post='5729237']
My self-esteem is lacking, I can think quite lowly of myself sometimes, it depends on the day I had. But overall, I can appreciate I have good friends and family and I like how I'm easy-going and try not to cause a problem unless it's necessary. It's hard for me to take a compliment, but I always appreciate the sentiment.
Other than that, I wish I wasn't a procrastinator.
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[color=#FFD700]Fuse? feeling lowly? The apocalypse is upon us[/color]

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I'm quite simple
live life with low expectations and stroll along saying "f*** it" allowing no excuses for yourself

my closest friend is super complex, and he says he chooses to be unhappy because he refuses to believe that everyone is that stupid and he can prove it.
he makes plenty contradictions and excuses but he seems to be doing fine.

so I say doesn't really matter if your unhappy or happy, only matters whether or not you like yourself that way

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How do you feel about you? Right now at this point I do like myself.

Do you like yourself? Yea pretty much.

Why do you like yourself? Mostly because I just feel seperate from the people around me. I try to be equal but it doesn't work. Sometimes when I argue with people I get the feeling I am better than them because of what I know when I know it isn't true. Currently working on fixing that BTW.

Or, on the flip side, why do you hate yourself? I hate myself because of the foolish religion I tried to pass off as real in order to foolishly try to avoid the truth of what happens when you die. Now I seek better philosophers for these prospects like Stephen Hawking, Richard Dawkins, or Christopher Hitchens.

What could you do to better yourself, and those around you? Nothing. Mostly because nothing is good enough for the people. I could try to change but that will only make me lose my old friends and help me gain new ones which doesn't solve a thing. I don't want to listen to the current idea of what is right and what is wrong. I want to be peaceful and promote equality but that would mean I have to attack the sources that hinder this equality and disrupt my idea of peace. I want to live on a peaceful yet rational side, a side that believes in a prospect of peace, but doesn't go to far in straying off to idiocy and becoming an outright fairytale. People can say I am an idiot for joining Christopher Hitchens' movement of Anti-Theism and many others find it hypocritical. However I feel it is right, and the ideas of what is right are different in every human conscience therefore I won't change. As long as I feel good about myself, I will not cling like a sea urchin to people's idea of me just so I can feel good about myself.

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[quote name='WTFauKorean' timestamp='1324867489' post='5729522']
I'm quite simple
live life with low expectations and stroll along saying "f*** it" allowing no excuses for yourself

my closest friend is super complex, and he says he chooses to be unhappy because he refuses to believe that everyone is that stupid and he can prove it.
he makes plenty contradictions and excuses but he seems to be doing fine.

so I say doesn't really matter if your unhappy or happy, only matters whether or not you like yourself that way
[/quote]
reminds me of that one movie were the main protagonists are forced to make pornos to make money

You do anyways

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I hate myself and sometimes can't comprehend
my utter stupidity. And guess what, I had a bit of self esteem before coming here. Now? Yea. I have no regards to
myself anymore. People are utter dickheads and I like to ignore them. Enough said. Solitary, much? Yes. But I
don't exactly care. I'm not a person who cares all that much.

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I'm a man with many stories surrounding me. Some are full of joy and caring thought. Others are blatant attempts to crush any hope of a future. This is mainly my YCM self. In the real world, I am an honor student who let's life get the best of him. Issues a normal person can live with are those that I struggle with. Life usually pushes me to the ground before I learn a well need life lesson. My skills can't be shown easily, but I do have some. If only YCM can go past the text we post on this site and truly understand the people in front of the computer.

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Do I like myself? No. Everything I want to be able to do I can't (sing, guitar, math, etc.). And most of the things that I can do I can't do well enough. I love to draw and write but somone always comes and upshines me with something incredible. Low self esteem, depression, ptsd, and recently diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. The injetions suck, one a day every day, if not more. Usually how I see it is that things would be better if other people what skill I have and then I could just fade out. It seems easier. I know it wont happen though. Physically I dont like myself either, I had managed to lose weight but during my extended hospital stays I managed to gain it all back and am back to square one. Switching from a private school withn a class size of 10 including me, to a huge high school with 120 kids a class isn't helping either. I tend to say the wrong things and appear a jackass when on the inside I am actually kind and caring. People don't want to take the time tog et to know me, wether it be because of the M.S. or teh fat that I one two people at the school who isn't roman catholic. If it isn't that its what I like to do, I love to cook, and that is the one skill I am proud of, I like to play video games, read, write, draw, act, play chess, and other games. I am a nerd to some degree on the inside and I don't have a problem with that, but it seems everyone else does.

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[quote name='Mako109' timestamp='1324782212' post='5727925']
I feel...eh, a bit overweight, which is something I'm working on. I don't feel handsome, but I don't feel ugly. And I think I'm AWESOME and the world is better off with me.

The world would suck if you didn't have that sarcastic friend who is always trying to make people laugh. :3

I also feel like I have something on the back of my mind I can't shake.

Then I remember what it was.

I have to take a shower, and then I'll be playing Battlefield 3.

Peace.
[/quote]I've seen you post pics of yourself. You're rather cute so cheer up(:

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I'm average 170 lbs for my age (17) considering I'm forced to eat a lot due to football and marching band. Thank god we do two-a-days at a nice facility.

A lot of people call me a skater or scene because I wear skinny jeans and shirts of bands I like. Truth is, I hate the feel of real baggy regular fits or even slim fit. Skinny jeans for days. And f*** you I can wear whatever shirt I want. I've worn a Whitechapel hoodie to school that had a woman being disemboweled on the back.

I'm fairly social and I know the majority of the 2500 or so kids on my campus. There are some groups I won't associate with though.

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