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[Serious] Depression and stuff

CLG Klavier

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CLG Klavier Newbie

CLG Klavier

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Story time!

 

I joined YCM when I was about 13 years old I think. I had fun around learning YGO, making cards and sheet. Then a bad thing happened and my parents divorced, which made my mom with whom I'm currently living kinda nervous/anxious/sad. Can't blame her, she was cheated on after all. It also ended up taking a toll on me, I closed myself, it got really easy to throw me off and make me cry. One day when I argued with mom about something and then left to walk the dog, I forgot to turn my laptop off and she found some very...intimate convos. She went batshit and called the police, thinking some pedophile is after me.

 

Since then (I think I was 14 then, foggy memories) I was under continuous strict control, both parents were heavily suspicious about everything I did, every place I went to. I really needed friends and people to talk to during that period, so I was doing things like sneaking out when mom wasn't home to an internet cafe so I could talk to people etc. Multiple times after seemingly regaining the trust of my parents, I got caught again and was put under control once more.

 

During that period, many more things happened. Dad started getting more distant, some friends started getting fed up with me, I got totally thrown into a trash can by a girl I was technically dating for a while...rough stuff. I was sitting in my room for most of the day, sleeping randomly (one day I slept until 4pm somehow. Still don't know how) and generally doing things that took a toll on me. I also got even more fat than I already was since I was eating a lot to somehow feel better.

 

What am I arriving at you may ask?

 

Currently I am 18 years old. I got a bunch of friends to talk to, IRL and online. I help my mom deal with her problems (dad's even more of a funking ass than ever, but that's another story). I play a lot of games, watch animes sometimes, go out for walks, I even picked up a summer job and started eating a bit more healthily. I'm still very sensitive of a person, but I'm not as easily thrown off as I used to. I'm still not quite there, but I'm getting there.

 

And you know what helped me get there?

 

Will to change aside, it was friends, a bit of family...but you know what for sure it wasn't?

 

Posting on the internet and getting random hugs and "get better soon" from people I don't even personally know. I understand it. A person craves attention in such moments. But it's not the way to go. A milion of "get better"s from colleagues/random people doesn't make as much of an impact as a single hug from a close friend. We all have that person, one way or the other. A person we chat with on the internet every day, to who we complain about our problems, with whom we laugh.

 

So please, if you have this kind of problem, try. Talk to your special person, and if you don't have one, try to find them. Try a new hobby. Occupy yourself. Fix your sleep schedule. And if you can't do those things, at least give it a shot. It might just works. I know how it feels to be like that, and it really hurts me to think there are people who can't deal with those problems. So even if you're all lonely, at least know that I believe in you. It's doable. You can get out of it. 

 

This is also a thank you to my special person who helped me to get out of this, and is still helping me despite all the sheet they have to put with.

 

Peace guys. Chins up, and carry on.

 

tl;dr You can. Give yourself a chance.

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GarlandChaos Newbie

GarlandChaos

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I don't know if I've ever told anyone on her but I have depression as well as ADHD, OCD/Anxiety, and Aspergers. I have no friends IRL.

 

I'm glad you were able to get out of it, though. I hope everything continues to work out for you.

I'm actually in mostly the same boat as you, Raeg. I have ADHD, OCD, Anxiety, and Aspergers. I only have a few friends IRL, nothing too special.

 

In regards to Klav, though, I'm also happy that you got out of your bind, and hope everything keeps getting better from here on out.

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I've been on both sides of this story. I've been in the seat of depression and had people very close to me be the ones who helped me get through it. I've seen others around me fall into that same depression and have stepped up to be the one to help them get through it. Sometimes a kind word or gesture from a stranger or someone you only vaguely know is nice, and can give you a tiny spark of content for the time being, but what makes the biggest impact is getting those kind words and nice gestures from the people who you know very well, very personally, as most of those people will actually know what to say to make you feel better. They'll know what sets you off and what makes you sad, and you'll be comfortable enough to open up to them and tell them what's wrong if they don't know already. And what makes that have the most impact is that you know they care, because you know them personally too. You know that they aren't just being a token nice guy throwing a "hey feel better" your way because it's the right thing to do. You know that they do indeed care for your well-being and are probably worried about your state of mind. And more often than not, it's that very connection that you'll be reminded of, and that connection that will help drag you out of your depression.

 

tl;dr strong connections with people are very important

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