CLG Klavier Posted April 12, 2015 Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 You ever had that moment when you felt something inside you died? I guess something did in me a longer while ago, and I can't pick myself up after it. I'm not depressed or suicidal lately. Just...empty, lost. I don't know what to do and where to go. I feel unwelcome in all friend circles, even if it's not true. I feel like everyone is talking about me behind my back, even if no one does. I feel like everything I do goes to shit, even if it doesn't. I went through so many ups and downs in my past years that I don't know where I am at the moment. Bad things keep happening, and I'm scared of good things happening since after they end, I feel even worse than as if they never happened. Everything around is annoying me, I will always find something to complain on. I wish things around me were how I want them to be, but I know they never will. Even though I have friends, I feel really lonely, I feel like I don't deserve any of them. It's getting harder and harder for me to open up to new people, even though back in the day it was piss easy for me. Things I loved don't bring me joy anymore and are tedious for me to do. Even though I still enjoy and want to do them, I can't. I...I don't know. I'm just rambling. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Simping For Hina Posted April 12, 2015 Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 Maybe if you didn't attack people for being themselves, then everything would be okay. Or maybe you don't feel empty when you attack people, and if that is true; change yourself. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CLG Klavier Posted April 12, 2015 Author Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 Maybe if you didn't attack people for being themselves, then everything would be okay. Or maybe you don't feel empty when you attack people, and if that is true; change yourself. It's not that. It's probably me venting out my frustration at things around me that piss me off to some degree. It doesn't make me feel better. And personally now, "being myself" is not an excuse for people an ass or having a huge ego. Just like I can say I'm "being myself" when calling people out and you all can't do anything to me about it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Simping For Hina Posted April 12, 2015 Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 If you're "being yourself" and calling others out; you have a cancer of a personality if those people aren't causing any harm to you. I can say something about it because you're just a horrible person toward people who haven't done anything wrong, and hurting people for no reason. If that is who you are, change or don't even say a fucking word. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tourmaline Posted April 12, 2015 Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 You're feeling empty? That's something I used to feel really often, too. Now I am not nearly as depressed as I have ever been. I'm actually happier now than ever. Just never forget that you can always talk to me about anything. I may have already told you this, but you don't have to feel lonely at all, though I guess it would be hard for you to open up to me and feel better. Since we're not really friends you would have to earn the relationship which means you would deserve it, hm? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CLG Klavier Posted April 12, 2015 Author Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 If you're "being yourself" and calling others out; you have a cancer of a personality if those people aren't causing any harm to you. I can say something about it because you're just a horrible person toward people who haven't done anything wrong, and hurting people for no reason. If that is who you are, change or don't even say a fucking word. k irony is leaking once more. Thank you for your time and carry on. You're feeling empty? That's something I used to feel really often, too. Now I am not nearly as depressed as I have ever been. I'm actually happier now than ever. Just never forget that you can always talk to me about anything. I may have already told you this, but you don't have to feel lonely at all, though I guess it would be hard for you to open up to me and feel better. Since we're not really friends you would have to earn the relationship which means you would deserve it, hm? I am happy for the most part...but sometimes this gets to me, so in the longer run, I'm far from being fine. Thanks for the offer. Maybe I'll take it up. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tourmaline Posted April 12, 2015 Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 Yeah! It would be great if you would take it up. I'm always up to talking and I just got my signature like I told you I would. What do you think? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CLG Klavier Posted April 12, 2015 Author Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 Yeah! It would be great if you would take it up. I'm always up to talking and I just got my signature like I told you I would. What do you think? is "boobs" an opinion cuz that's the only thing I can make out there Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tourmaline Posted April 12, 2015 Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 is "boobs" an opinion cuz that's the only thing I can make out there And there are feet. Those are cute, too. Is that good? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CLG Klavier Posted April 12, 2015 Author Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 And there are feet. Those are cute, too. Is that good? In my book, quite good~ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tourmaline Posted April 12, 2015 Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 Anyway, if you would ever like to speak, feel free to contact me whenever. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mr. Hyde Posted April 12, 2015 Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 I wrote out a lot....but ended up changing it to keep things simple. I've felt this way for a while now, and i think it's mainly due to college dragging me down, with a mixture of a bunch of other factors. We've just got to wake up each morning and face the future one day at a time until that feeling goes away i guess... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Toffee. Posted April 12, 2015 Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 Klav, you need to fill that 'empty' with something similar to what you had lost. It will honestly help you in the long run, and reignite that lost bit in a new thing, and it much more favorable.....Or something like that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hunduel Posted April 12, 2015 Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 It's pretty normal at your age to feel like that. If you're around 18, there are a lots of changes in your life and losing the stability in your life, or in contrary, feeling that you want to break out from your daily routine, is something that everyone feels at this time or at least once during their lifespan. Some people can't even sleep because of that. Not because they are afraid of something, but because of, as you've already mentioned it, the emptiness they feel rules their life. They can't feel anything anymore. Not pain, not happiness, they are just outside viewers of their own life. First and most important: you have to find yourself. Be brave enough to start your own journey. Realize what makes you happy, realize what you want from life and take the first step. It may be scary, but don't forget you have nothing to lose. Motivate yourself by goals, but do not priorize these goals. Remember that if you can get anything, then the goal will lose its meaning. People make these goals not to achieve them easily, but to build the road, the way how to reach what they want. Sometimes the journey is more important than the destination itself. If you're leaving high school, look for opportunities to travel abroad after school, learn about new cultures or your own country. Look for a place where you can learn not only a subject, but about yourself and how to continue your life. It doesn't have to be permanent, but anything that will move out from your routine can get you moving forward. Do not be afraid this time either. You have nothing to lose. Then if you know what makes you, what are your goals, what is your destination, then start the journey - in your own way. Find methods how you want to achieve it, find the tools and the people who can help during your journey. Find the people you will share a path with. It may be or may not be your friends. If they are true friends, they will support you always (even in the least expected situation), but if not, do not be afraid to leave them. Your new journey, new life is what must matter now. Go out from your comfort zone. You may feel too secured and the lack of any excitement may hurt your soul. Do something that you haven't experienced before. Something that you may even be afraid of. Not because of primal instincts, but because you fear from the unknown. Like travelling alone, getting to know new people, starting a project on your own. Anything you can imagine can be created. It is up to you how you choose to follow your path that you are destined to walk on. Do NOT listen to, however, those who want to stop you. If you know what you want, it may sound really silly, but do not fear to reach your goal, your destination. Do NOT stop to those who want you to stop. They aren't with you, even if they say so. HOWEVER, keep in mind that it won't work for the first time. Maybe won't work for the second, third, or even tenth time. Things need time to work. But don't feel it as a failure, more like an experience that you could learn from. It could be also a problem that you're struggling because you want something too much. Sometimes the best you can do is just "go with the flow". It doesn't mean that you shouldn't do something: it's the opposite actually, but you don't have to be ready always and that you don't need to try too hard. Just watch the signs and catch the moment you have to act. And the most important thing you have to remember: even the blackest night is followed by a day. You may feel that you don't deserve what you get, even if it is good or bad. Do not worry about it. They aren't to punish you. You did nothing wrong. In fact, these are lessons you have to experience so in the glory moment when you get you've been fighting for long time, you're ready to achieve what you want. I hope I could help with this short text. I'm always opened for discussion with anyone about such a serious topic, so if you need someone to talk to, feel free to contact me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CLG Klavier Posted April 12, 2015 Author Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 I wrote out a lot....but ended up changing it to keep things simple. I've felt this way for a while now, and i think it's mainly due to college dragging me down, with a mixture of a bunch of other factors. We've just got to wake up each morning and face the future one day at a time until that feeling goes away i guess... I guess. I mean, even if I don't get to change anything, I need to pull through. Klav, you need to fill that 'empty' with something similar to what you had lost. It will honestly help you in the long run, and reignite that lost bit in a new thing, and it much more favorable. .... Or something like that. Easier said than done. I know this needs to happen. But that's exactly why I'm scared, I don't wanna redo things I did before that ended up badly. It's pretty normal at your age to feel like that. If you're around 18, there are a lots of changes in your life and losing the stability in your life, or in contrary, feeling that you want to break out from your daily routine, is something that everyone feels at this time or at least once during their lifespan. Some people can't even sleep because of that. Not because they are afraid of something, but because of, as you've already mentioned it, the emptiness they feel rules their life. They can't feel anything anymore. Not pain, not happiness, they are just outside viewers of their own life. First and most important: you have to find yourself. Be brave enough to start your own journey. Realize what makes you happy, realize what you want from life and take the first step. It may be scary, but don't forget you have nothing to lose. Motivate yourself by goals, but do not priorize these goals. Remember that if you can get anything, then the goal will lose its meaning. People make these goals not to achieve them easily, but to build the road, the way how to reach what they want. Sometimes the journey is more important than the destination itself. If you're leaving high school, look for opportunities to travel abroad after school, learn about new cultures or your own country. Look for a place where you can learn not only a subject, but about yourself and how to continue your life. It doesn't have to be permanent, but anything that will move out from your routine can get you moving forward. Do not be afraid this time either. You have nothing to lose. Then if you know what makes you, what are your goals, what is your destination, then start the journey - in your own way. Find methods how you want to achieve it, find the tools and the people who can help during your journey. Find the people you will share a path with. It may be or may not be your friends. If they are true friends, they will support you always (even in the least expected situation), but if not, do not be afraid to leave them. Your new journey, new life is what must matter now. Go out from your comfort zone. You may feel too secured and the lack of any excitement may hurt your soul. Do something that you haven't experienced before. Something that you may even be afraid of. Not because of primal instincts, but because you fear from the unknown. Like travelling alone, getting to know new people, starting a project on your own. Anything you can imagine can be created. It is up to you how you choose to follow your path that you are destined to walk on. Do NOT listen to, however, those who want to stop you. If you know what you want, it may sound really silly, but do not fear to reach your goal, your destination. Do NOT stop to those who want you to stop. They aren't with you, even if they say so. HOWEVER, keep in mind that it won't work for the first time. Maybe won't work for the second, third, or even tenth time. Things need time to work. But don't feel it as a failure, more like an experience that you could learn from. It could be also a problem that you're struggling because you want something too much. Sometimes the best you can do is just "go with the flow". It doesn't mean that you shouldn't do something: it's the opposite actually, but you don't have to be ready always and that you don't need to try too hard. Just watch the signs and catch the moment you have to act. And the most important thing you have to remember: even the blackest night is followed by a day. You may feel that you don't deserve what you get, even if it is good or bad. Do not worry about it. They aren't to punish you. You did nothing wrong. In fact, these are lessons you have to experience so in the glory moment when you get you've been fighting for long time, you're ready to achieve what you want. I hope I could help with this short text. I'm always opened for discussion with anyone about such a serious topic, so if you need someone to talk to, feel free to contact me. That's...wow that's long. I skimped it over and I get what you're trying to say, I'll read it very carefully before I go to sleep. And thanks for the talk offer as well. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Spinny Posted April 12, 2015 Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 I'm rubbish at making people feel better with lots of words. So have a hug from your local spinda *hugs* and I hope it gets better for you soon! > insert invitation to talk on Skype here < Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Simping For Hina Posted April 12, 2015 Report Share Posted April 12, 2015 k irony is leaking once more. Thank you for your time and carry on. Irony? Oh, my ego. You should learn the difference because I haven't brought anyone down. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ihop Posted April 13, 2015 Report Share Posted April 13, 2015 The irony, I suppose, being that using a genuine plea for serious help as a way to call someone out for being rude and attacking people is an attack and is pretty rude in its own right? Klav... I don't know what to say, I'm an emotionless prick and terrible with this sort of stuff, but I read what ferenc says and it's really helpful. All I can say is that even though I don't know you terribly well I think you're cool and I respect you. I know plenty of people have offered already but if you ever want someone to complain (or talk) to hit me up, I'm usually there and almost always willing to listen. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Simping For Hina Posted April 13, 2015 Report Share Posted April 13, 2015 Yeah, you're right. I should put myself on higher ground from someone who has been attacking people all day. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CLG Klavier Posted April 13, 2015 Author Report Share Posted April 13, 2015 Yeah, you're right. I should put myself on higher ground from someone who has been attacking people all day. Shut up finally. Please. Stop stroking yourself. We get it. You're the most perfect human being in the world, ideal to every degree and no one is on your level. We get it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Simping For Hina Posted April 13, 2015 Report Share Posted April 13, 2015 Shut up finally. Please. Stop stroking yourself. We get it. You're the most perfect human being in the world, ideal to every degree and no one is on your level. We get it. Are you telling me to stop masturbating? Have you met me? It is the only pleasure I get since most humans cannot get on my level. Surely you don't get it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hunduel Posted April 13, 2015 Report Share Posted April 13, 2015 Are you telling me to stop masturbating? Have you met me? It is the only pleasure I get since most humans cannot get on my level. Surely you don't get it. He may be a jerk with you in the past, but it is still not a reason to behave like that. By the way, what's the story between you? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Simping For Hina Posted April 13, 2015 Report Share Posted April 13, 2015 He may be a jerk with you in the past, but it is still not a reason to behave like that. By the way, what's the story between you? Not a jerk to me, but someone else and recently. I don't even know the story between us. He is butthurt because of my flag, it seems. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LordCowCowCowCowCowCowCowCow Posted April 13, 2015 Report Share Posted April 13, 2015 Okay wanna know the story? Here's the story. Klav doesn't like Dae's attitude. Dae doesn't like Klav's attitude. The end. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CLG Klavier Posted April 13, 2015 Author Report Share Posted April 13, 2015 whatever, end of topic Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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