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Hey guys, it's been a while. "What?" you say, "You haven't left"

Well yes I have, at least, some of my emotional side has. "You're plenty emotional, trust me." Be quiet voice I made up for this.

 

Anyway it's been a long time since I've bared certain types of feelings to everyone here.

 

I...I think I lost my optimism. Like I was always extremely paranoid and anxious and thought the worst would happen.
But I used to have more spark, more energy, more drive to spread joy.
What the hell happened to me? I try and pinpoint when my dive into more cynical, lazy, sometimes even uncaring, views happened. What changed where I no longer did my darndest to make sure people felt the love I felt, and what happened to that love in the first place? Like I still have those feelings, and I still try, but something drastic has changed within me.

I'm sure you've seen hints of the better Cow, y'all still like me, for the most part, after all. But I sure ain't the same as I once was.

I remember being excited over small things, being able to feel more pride in my every accomplishments, and brush off failures with the help of my friends.

 

I used to do more. Or rather, I used to do more with more heart. Now everything just feels like a job, having to do it to keep things going. I occasionally feel that wonder I once did but it's coming less and less frequently.

 

And so. Here I go. Hi YCM, I'm da Cow, name's Ryan but no one calls me that, Cow is just fine anyway. I love to write, it's the greatest thing in the world to be able to craft even a single sentence the way you want.
And you know what's even better? Friends, love, heart. That is the truly great thing. And guess what? I freaking love you guys. You all have heard me say this before but it's been way too long since I expressed it this way.

 

You can frustrate me at times, piss me off, sadden me, but hell no I don't regret you being part of my life, in the long run. I'm going to try damn hard to remember who I really am, instead of this struggling to not lose myself in cynicism and bitterness person I've been downgraded to when I wasn't looking.

 

Now....

WHO NEEDS A HUG?

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Everyone needs a hug, whether they confess it or not. Moreover, everyone knows that you love them, but this goes vise-versa. You cry, they wipe your tears.

We all support you, so no need to "do things just to keep going". Also, while loving and caring means a lot, just doing so in your mind doesn't really help. You need to be active, energetic, and not necessarily doing extreme or magnificent things! Try not to feel down and overthink things and everything will be fine. :D

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Everyone needs a hug, whether they confess it or not.

This, just this. We all go through crap. Everyone I know, including me, have issues and personal hang ups that can get to us. Thats ok. thats human. We aren't perfect and can only try to get as close as possible. But always keep trying. Always.

 

Now, HUGS FOR EVERYONE!!!!

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Is this you asking for a hug? I think it is. *hugs*

 

 

Everyone needs a hug, whether they confess it or not. Moreover, everyone knows that you love them, but this goes vise-versa. You cry, they wipe your tears.

We all support you, so no need to "do things just to keep going". Also, while loving and caring means a lot, just doing so in your mind doesn't really help. You need to be active, energetic, and not necessarily doing extreme or magnificent things! Try not to feel down and overthink things and everything will be fine. :D

Hugs indeed! *hugs*

 

 

This, just this. We all go through crap. Everyone I know, including me, have issues and personal hang ups that can get to us. Thats ok. thats human. We aren't perfect and can only try to get as close as possible. But always keep trying. Always.

 

Now, HUGS FOR EVERYONE!!!!

Even you, you say? *hugs!*

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Hey guys, it's been a while. "What?" you say, "You haven't left"

Well yes I have, at least, some of my emotional side has. "You're plenty emotional, trust me." Be quiet voice I made up for this.

 

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Anyway it's been a long time since I've bared certain types of feelings to everyone here.

 

A few months back, or are we talking years?

I...I think I lost my optimism. Like I was always extremely paranoid and anxious and thought the worst would happen.

But I used to have more spark, more energy, more drive to spread joy.

What the hell happened to me? I try and pinpoint when my dive into more cynical, lazy, sometimes even uncaring, views happened. What changed where I no longer did my darndest to make sure people felt the love I felt, and what happened to that love in the first place? Like I still have those feelings, and I still try, but something drastic has changed within me.

I'm sure you've seen hints of the better Cow, y'all still like me, for the most part, after all. But I sure ain't the same as I once was.

I remember being excited over small things, being able to feel more pride in my every accomplishments, and brush off failures with the help of my friends.

 

Not too sure what to say here, since we haven't known each other for too long, but you're still CowCow, and there's no need to worry. However, should you say otherwise, I respect your decisions.

I used to do more. Or rather, I used to do more with more heart. Now everything just feels like a job, having to do it to keep things going. I occasionally feel that wonder I once did but it's coming less and less frequently.

 

Especially when you have a job.

You can frustrate me at times, piss me off, sadden me, but hell no I don't regret you being part of my life, in the long run. I'm going to try damn hard to remember who I really am, instead of this struggling to not lose myself in cynicism and bitterness person I've been downgraded to when I wasn't looking.

 

Thank you!

 

Best of luck, CowCow.

Now....

WHO NEEDS A HUG?

Could I have hug?
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A few months back, or are we talking years?

Not too sure what to say here, since we haven't known each other for too long, but you're still CowCow, and there's no need to worry. However, should you say otherwise, I respect your decisions.

Especially when you have a job.

Thank you!

 

Best of luck, CowCow.

Could I have hug?

I think months technically, but really it's been a year or so since I really felt the same.

And thanks. I am me yeah, just, not as me as I could be...Not as...happy.

*hugs*

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