EndUser Posted July 12, 2016 Report Share Posted July 12, 2016 I never thought I'd reach the point where I'd expose this part of me. I'll probably feel better tomorrow and regretting saying the below stuff, but then I'd have just burried my feels once again. Anyway, to the point: I'm sorry. I try hard to make myself helpful and friendly, while expecting you guys do the same for me. I lack interests and communication skills, while trying to adapt even if that's not possible. Chatting here and there, playing/dueling/having fun with you,... All good but, what if those end? Am I one you'll consider for your next game or to have a say to a matter? I try to defend myself at sensitive things or when I know something is very wrong. That's normal, isn't it? Everyone does it. My complaints and worries are not always heard, though. Sometimes, I may indeed cause rumors or bad thoughts against me with my actions, even if I don't have any bad intentions at all. Who is to blame? Me, of course. What do I do wrong? I know, but I also don't know at the same time. My best is not enough. My worst will destroy me. Medium solution? What may that be? Sicne there's not much I can do to show that "I'm here too", even unimportant things said or done against me can affect me a lot. Not always, but they definitely leave a litte mark. Being "the good guy" is not that easy. However, it's the best I can try. Is it the case, though? How can I value to you without causing problems? How can I be part of you without being extreme? I'm afraid my true self will set me apart from you. If I don't give a good shot, I'll probably be so distant that you won't even notice. Occasionally, all the above thoughts come to mind but they don't seem to stop re-coming back. Probably because I'm a prisoner to them and just go on, w/o trying to make a change. I don't even know why I'm telling you all this. Probably just to let go of the pain I have right now and, maybe, to hear something to soothe me... I don't know. Do I seek pity? Do I seek help? Talking like that makes people less happy than the opposite. Can I really help it though? Since my actions and words can't reach some of you, maybe this cry lets you at least see how I feel. From there, do as you wish. I'm sorry. And sorry for being persistent or ignorant about things. Also: Trying to befriend someone when there's too little value from me... Really, who does that? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Partangle the Candle Jangler Posted July 12, 2016 Report Share Posted July 12, 2016 kek Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cherz Posted July 12, 2016 Report Share Posted July 12, 2016 I'm confused. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ryusei the Morning Star Posted July 12, 2016 Report Share Posted July 12, 2016 funk Black and funk Dani if that's the case. I don't see why you care so much what a few idiots think of you? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EndUser Posted July 12, 2016 Author Report Share Posted July 12, 2016 Winter: It would be a lot better if it was them and only them.You make a mistake though: I didn't even write for them. It's something about me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Spinny Posted July 12, 2016 Report Share Posted July 12, 2016 *hug* Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Arimetal Posted July 12, 2016 Report Share Posted July 12, 2016 f*** Black and f*** Dani if that's the case. I don't see why you care so much what a few idiots think of you?Since when were you against me, at any time Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ryusei the Morning Star Posted July 12, 2016 Report Share Posted July 12, 2016 Since when were you against me, at any timeNever, but he still shouldn't give a flying funk. Would have said the same thing if he was getting defensive about me calling him creepy. It's not healthy to get so charged over what others say about you Also put what black says through multiple filters before taking it's value Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Arimetal Posted July 12, 2016 Report Share Posted July 12, 2016 Never, but he still shouldn't give a flying f***. Would have said the same thing if he was getting defensive about me calling him creepy. It's not healthy to get so charged over what others say about you Also put what black says through multiple filters before taking it's valueOk, makin sure. I just know you get a bit hostile when you're hungry... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blake Posted July 13, 2016 Report Share Posted July 13, 2016 I simply posted what reasons people had, based on how OP presented himself. He privately messaged me on discord, and I explained it has no personal influence, but there are reasons, and it's not a matter of "it's everyone else". If a large pool seem to think or feel a way, there has to be a core reason. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cr47t Posted July 13, 2016 Report Share Posted July 13, 2016 I've never seen you do anything wrong here, and I don't see the need for you to be so hard on yourself. You don't have to keep going on in life being sad like that. (If I seem to be getting anything wrong, just tell me.) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Madsen Posted July 13, 2016 Report Share Posted July 13, 2016 kek Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Partangle the Candle Jangler Posted July 13, 2016 Report Share Posted July 13, 2016 http://forum.yugiohcardmaker.net/topic/354786-oh-hello-ycmaker/?do=findComment&comment=6905228 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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