[Semi-Serious] In this world, it's kill or be killed? I just can't understand...

[Blake]

Lyrics, art, etc. can be spoilers for those who have not played UNDERTALE. Relevant to post and title.

For all the people that hate 2016 thus far, I love it just as much as that collective hate. Things may not be great on the world front, but they are in my world.

 

I have a job. No, I don't love it, but it's better than nothing. And it means I'm not hopeless. I just have to keep the tiniest candle of self-confidence burning inside of me.

 

While family life isn't great... I feel so loved, more than I'm used to. So needed, so wanted, so desired.

 

I have a wonderful best friend who has always put her neck out for me and done her best to make sure I'm included, even in places that it seems like I couldn't function. But I can. She always believes in me, believes that I can be better than I am. And she has for years.

 

I have a wonderful girlfriend... two of them. Because I took a risk, and joined a 3-way relationship, allowing myself to be "young", and to not fear "mistakes". They make me feel like I matter, and as if there is a place for me. As if, even if we don't make it, I have them as friends for the rest of my life. And the romance is still there and sweet. It's not a matter of the love feeling being eternally there, as I've always known, but 

 

And even though that best friend and one of the gfs hated each other... They're friends now. Maybe not the best of friends, but there's no hate. And that make me so, so, SO happy.

 

It's not even that life is perfect. Far from it. But I've found a place, people who make me truly happy. Truly accepted. I feel... content.

 

So, this is where I am now.

 

I don't feel the need to hide in my shell anymore. I don't feel the need to be coarse and cold, and haven't for... most of this year. The breakup tore me apart, tore Bree apart, but we needed it. And now... we're better for it. As friends and beyond.

 

I'm not saying I'm the most approachable person, nor do I want you to think such. But... I don't feel the need to be shut off or fearful that I did for ages. I don't feel sick with every word, worried someone's going to get angry or point out a flaw. I don't feel like my emotions have to be restrained, and I don't feel like they'll overrun me. Balance.

 

I would have made a status, and I did try to, but too much to contain at once, especially with the music. Just... Yeah, things are good. I get angry at real life, but I know I have people to come home to, and there's no better feeling than that.

[Ryusei the Morning Star]

Glad you're happy is all mate

 

I was a little worried about you after Bree. Granted I heard stories second hand, but it seemed like you were really cut up about it (rightfully)

 

I get we're not on best terms, but I for one am really happy you're on the mend (atleast that's the idea I got from reading this)

 

A little love helps mend wounds, and a job is better than nothing

 

Just happy for you haha

 

Sorry if this sounds superficial, I'm awful with words lol

[LordCowCowCowCowCowCowCowCow]

I tried to comment on your status but it poofed.

 

Happy Black makes me legit happy.

[MiracleGhost47]

Neato. Say, how did you benefit from the breakup? What did you learn from it? 

[Blake]

Neato. Say, how did you benefit from the breakup? What did you learn from it? 

Independence. To be less afraid. That I shouldn't be terrified of being apart, but to value the time together more than anything.

 

And to grow up on my own, without having to be paired off to do so.

[MiracleGhost47]

Independence. To be less afraid. That I shouldn't be terrified of being apart, but to value the time together more than anything.

 

And to grow up on my own, without having to be paired off to do so.

Yeah, independence is great. The less you need to rely on others, the better. 

 

So, what kind of people are you looking for? How do you know who will or will not satisfy your... needs? Some aren't always who they seem to be, but no one is truly perfect. :P

[Toffee.]

I'm not saying I'm the most approachable person, nor do I want you to think such. But... I don't feel the need to be shut off or fearful that I did for ages. I don't feel sick with every word, worried someone's going to get angry or point out a flaw. I don't feel like my emotions have to be restrained, and I don't feel like they'll overrun me. Balance.

I've mentioned this to you before, you know. You shouldn't get worked up or anything over things that are important to you; Embrace what you can and hold onto it; Little things like that in life will last a long time. They may seem insignificant to some people or whatever, but they aren't you, and you shouldn't let those sorts of judgements leave an impact on you.

[epicmemesbro]

2016 will be bad so as long as its the current year. Since for many they view the next year as something to hope for. Similar to how many never accomplish their new years resolution and think "maybe next year I will". So they find themselves in an endless loop of disappointment and a false sense of striving for something greater. It amounts to nothing because peoples' goals are shoved at the bac of their minds for the most part and live in a fool's paradise where ignorance is bliss. And endless cycle of empty fulfillment and pseudo attempts to change. So many put their goals on cruise control and complain in the mean time. I can't fault them, since in a few aspects I find myself aboard the same boat. Problem is, many have bought their ticket and there's no going back for them. So if they spent a great deal of effort doing something they think will bring a great meaning to their life and find out that it wasn't as great as they thought it to be, they're screwed. So all they can do is feel a sense of despair, and mope.

[(GigaDrillBreaker)]

when people are afraid, they behave in ways they regret, but that regret leads to even more fear.

 

Once you break free of that fear, and accept that they way you were living isn't the way you should be, you can become truly happy.

 

Sometimes things can feel like they are right sheerly because they have become the new normal, but never be afraid to challenge them.

[Yui]

Good to hear you're doing good. There was going to be some witty Undertale reference for this sentence, but I forgot what it was.

 

Here's hoping this upward trend in your life continues. 2016's been pretty sheet on the global scale, so it's nice to hear when it's been good on somebody's personal scale.

[Tourmaline]

I always knew you'd end up fine since day one.

 

You're almost qualified to join my fan club.

 

Also I hope I helped throughout the years. It's odd how many people will never get to experience the you that people like Armz and I woild remember.

[PhoenixOfCute]

It's really warming to my heart to hear that you're doing that good this year Black. I know it can be hard on some people, but as long as you know you have those who love you at your side every step of the way, you'll do fine. Even if things don't work out, which honestly I really doubt they won't at this point, you have life-long friends who will always be there for you. You should feel safe and comfortable in your own skin. I know I've had that issue quite a lot too, but if there's one thing I've learned in the time I've known you, it's that you're one of the best people I've ever met, and I want you to know how extremely -proud- i am to just be -able- to know such a person. You've had an amazing impact on my life as well Black and I know you're with me every step of the way. ^^